Sunday, January 23, 2011

The Sweetest Thing

   I love going back and reading through my blog just to see how far I've come as a person. My first couple of blog posts were about my family and myself and about how I couldn't wait to have a baby. Can you believe 10 months ago today Christian was born! He is growing into this amazing little boy that I love and cherish so much. He's learning cause and reaction, he bites me and thinks it's hilarious when I say "ouch". He loves to play pee-a-boo. Sienna will get on her hands and knees and they'll play a fun little game of crawl and chase. One of his favorite things to do is throw anything on the ground and watch as daddy, sissy, or I bend down to pick it up for him. He drinks from a sippy and LOVES to feed himself crackers and noodles. He likes to stand in the middle of the room clap his hands and dance. He has these huge dimples and no matter how frustrated he makes me, all he has to do is turn them on and I cave (which is going to be BAD when he gets older). He is such a momma's boy but day by day daddy is getting closer to taking the title. He's just starting to get to this fun age where I can take him to the mall or library and he'll play (where as before he just slept and ate). He's getting SO close to walking I give him a week or 2 before he's full on walking. I can't believe in just 2 months that he is going to be a year old! It seems like this year has just flown! I remember the day I found out I was pregnant and that 37 weeks seemed like the longest 37 weeks of my entire life but now that he's actually here it's crazy how quickly time is flying! Chris and I plan to have another baby here pretty soon, we want our kids to be close in age, ideally Christian will be 2 by the time we have another baby. I would like to be pregnant no later than September hopefully my next pregnancy goes as smoothly as my last, and I PRAY we have a girl :-) I love my children so much, and I feel so lucky that the Lord has blessed me with such an amazing family!







Saturday, January 8, 2011

My growing baby

2 days old
1 month old
2months old
3 months old

4 months old
5 months old
6 months old
7 months old
8 months old
9 months old
10 months!

   Check back every month on the 23rd and I'll add a new picture!

Wish you were here

   

Christian stood up in the middle of the living room today and took 2 steps, then he realized what he was doing, got scared and fell to his butt I reached for my phone to call you so I could share the news then I remembered I can never hear your voice again for you're no longer here. If I had a nickel for every time this happens I'd be rich. The day he was born was the proudest moment in my life I wanted, needed you there but you're gone. There are days that I miss you so much all I want to do is lay in bed and cry but I can't, I have to get up, smile and pretend like everything is perfect for my family. It's not fair that you're not around to nag me for the way I parent or to give my kids candy late at night when I've told you a thousand times I hate that. In my heart I know how much you would have loved Sienna and Christian would have adored you and melted your heart. Just once I wish I could hear you tell me how Christian has your mouth and toes. I wish I could have seen the look on your face when you found out Christian's middle name was going to be Douglas, you would have been so proud. I wish we could call each other and complain about Jeremy's deployment and talk about how much we miss him and can't wait for his safe arrival home. I remember how we'd talk for hours at night then you'd call me the next morning and ask me why I never call you, I'd have to remind you we just talked the night before, I wish I never would have taken that for granted. I wish that when you were dying in the hospital I would have cried in front of you and told you how scared I was to live the rest of my life without you in it. I didn't know how I would carry on without you but somehow I find the strength and manage. I thought that time would ease my pain and make things easier but it really hasn't, it's been almost 5 years but I remember watching you take your last breath like it was yesterday. I think about how my kids will never really know you, you can never rock them to sleep, make them laugh until it hurts, and comfort them when they're sad, you can't comfort me when I'm sad, and it feels like my heart is literally breaking. I miss you so very, very much dad and I can't wait for the day we meet again, I love you.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Goodbye 2010

 I was seriously pretty sad to see 2010 come to an end! There were so many things that made this year spectacular, if 2011 is anything like it we are in for a great surprise. I want to list all the things that happened in 2010 that made it so wonderful, so here I go in order :-)
                I got to ring in the new year with my big brother and his wife in Vegas
We came back from Washington and got Sienna back!
In February we moved into our new house that I love!
Sienna helped paint her own room
Abby had her puppies and they were so cute!
In March Sienna turned 7!
Brandon came to Utah and I was like 34 weeks pregnant
I had my baby shower
I finally put together Christian's nursery

Surprise surprise! I went into labor 3 weeks early
My most favorite day of 2010 March 23rd Christian was born!

Sienna held her brother for the first time
In April we took Christian to Idaho so he could meet his cousins and most of my family
In May we I got to spend my first Mother's Day with my darling little son
Sienna started her first year of softball
My niece McKenna was born and we drove to Vegas to meet her
We went to Idaho in June and got to be with all of my family to scatter my grandpa's ashes
In July Sienna and Christian got to spend their first 4th of July together
Christian's first day at the park with big sister
We had Christian's blessing
My 2 best friends drove up from Washington to spend time with us and to meet Christian
In August we drove to Washington and got to have a family day with Chris
Christian met Nana for the first time
I got to spend some time with my best friends again
Christian got to meet grandma and grandpa Mings
We got to spend more time with grandma Karen, McKenna, Kaeden, Amara, Uncle Jeremy and aunt Charlie


In October we had our first Halloween together

In November I took Sienna to see Disney on Ice for the first time
Christian saw the snow for the first time

We got to spend Thanksgiving with Charlie, McKenna, and our family
In December we got to decorate for Christmas
We went to Christmas village with my best friend to see all of the lights
We went to the South Hills in Idaho with my cousins and got to see more beautiful lights and meet the awesome camel
We got to watch the kids open their presents from their dad who is in Afghanistan
We got a new kitten
My brother came up for his 21st birthday
We went to my best friend Natasha's fancy birthday party
This one was a Christmas to remember!
Goodbye 2010 hope 2011 can be as memorable